Life is a Bunch of Curve Balls…

I might like baseball a little too much…

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Let’s be real for a minute. Life is pretty shocking, you never know what curve balls will be thrown your way, but I’m pretty sure my life is an advocate for curve balls. Like, if there was a tutorial for how to throw a curve ball, my life would be the sponsor and/or used in the video. I’ve gone through some ups and some downs but, hey, that’s alright. Sometimes you need those ups and downs to get through life. As a favorite song of mine says, “learning through the downs, living for the ups” and that CANNOT be more true when it comes to life. Just in general. Life can be scary and crazy but that’s okay, it’s supposed to be like that. If you weren’t scared about the future or just life in the present then I’d be a little worried about your sanity. But even though life is scary, that doesn’t me we can’t enjoy it!

I’ve always loved life. I’ve never been ungrateful for God putting me on this Earth because I know that God has an insane, epic purpose for my existence. And, you know what? That makes me SO excited for the future.  Some people don’t exactly feel the same way, or see life from this perspective and what I have to say to them is that I hope they find their true happiness and love in this life. Life is hard but, in the wise words of Kelly Clarkson, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger! I get it, like I said earlier, life will throw some curve balls but that’s only one strike out of three. Give those other curve balls your best bat and if you strike out, guess what…There’s another chance for you to bat later in the game!

If you know me personally, you know that I’m all for a party and I can be the life of one if I feel like it. But sometimes, that isn’t the case. We all have these moments where life just gets us down, and I’m not saying to just lock yourself away for days and days on end. Sure, take a day or maybe two off from “doing life” but look at it this way, you don’t have to stay sad. Look at the beautiful things that God placed on this Earth and just remember to breathe. You WILL get through this, there is so much more to life than what you’re feeling now.

But now for the shocking part:

You don’t have this ‘under control’. Sorry to burst your bubble but, nope, you’ve got no say in this. But I know someone who does and I’d rather Him be holding down the fort than be struggling to keep the tent from flying away during a storm. You don’t control how your life will go. You don’t control how people feel about you, what people think about you, or what they do about you. They could talk about you in the worst way and there is no way for you to know, or for you to rewind the conversation and to fix what they said into something sugar-coated and pretty. That’s not how life works, but you’ve got something on your side that is WAY bigger than your mountains. The minute you give your mountain to God is the minute you can stop stressing over climbing it, because He’s already got it conquered.

There’s a little pick me up for the day.

Hearts & Rockets,

Kelly

The Anchor Holds

I’ve been listening to this song a lot. And not just because I found this guy who is kinda cute (and can sing “The Anchor Holds” with some kinda fire), I started listening to this oldie goldie a while back but have just recently REALLY listened to it.

When I first heard this song, I was asked to sing in a group for a homecoming service for a local retired judge. I learned the soprano part assigned to me in 2.7 seconds, did the service, and went on with my life. The song has always just kind of popped up here and there, my papaw would sing it with his southern gospel trio or just here is randomly come on while I was listening to my worship playlist. The significance of the lyrics always hit me in a certain way, but I wasn’t truly affected by them until recently.

A good friend of mine asked me to sing for a talent show, mentioning that I should look up a male judge that would be helping out with the event. So I did. I found multiple videos of this certain young man singing southern gospel songs I had heard all my life. But when I came across him singing this song in particular, I couldn’t bring myself to click on the link. I knew it would be heard to sit and listen to a song that basically told me that God’s got this and that is I hold onto Him I will make it through this, even though I had been telling myself these things for months. I was struggling with these huge mountains and troubling storms for a long time when this cover came into my path and it was almost like my mind was telling me that if I listened to the song I would be letting go of things that needed to be let go of. So I scrolled over the song and went back to diving deeper into a whole that led me further into a batch of oldie goldies but the video kept coming up.

I held off till I was at my lowest, even if I didn’t realize it at the time, and I finally caved. I wasn’t even looking to listen to that certain song, I was actually searching a song from a completely different genre but I guess God has other plans. I clicked on the video and began to listen and it took me back. WAY back. Every lyrics sent me reeling into memories that were harsh and cruel and unwanted but were memories needed, nonetheless. I think my favorite part of the song is the verses of the song, if you aren’t familiar with the song then here are the lyrics:

I have journeyed through the long dark night,
Out on the open sea, by faith alone,
Sight unknown; and yet his eyes were watching me.

I’ve had visions, I’ve had dreams;
I’ve even held them in my hand.
But I never knew they would slip right through,
Like they were only grains of sand.

I have been young but I’m older now.
And there has been beauty these eyes have seen.
But it was in the night, through the storms of my life,
Oh, that’s where God proved His love for me.

These lyrics really hit hard for me, and each verse seems to really tell a story that comes out of all of our lives. We are desperately in search of something to keep us going, something to hold us firm in our faith. When we feel like no one can see us in the darkness, when dreams fail, or when we see the wonderful things of life or the bad things, He’s there. He’s always watching. And for some reason, I couldn’t get that through my thick skull, that God was seeing my pain and my hurt and was holding me with the toughness and unbelievable strength of an anchor.

Have you have watched a movie about a big boat with a HUGE anchor, and the anchor ends up sinking to the bottom of the sea and NEVER MOVES. All it does is sit there and rust. Also, when the anchor first dropped into that sand in the bottom of the body of water, it kept that ginormous boat in place; no mater the wind, no matter the weight, that boat wasn’t going anywhere.

The anchor holds,
Though the ships been battered.
The anchor holds,
Though the sails are torn.
I have fallen on my knees as I face the raging seas.
The anchor holds in spite of the storm.

Matthew 7:24-27 says, “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.” and in Hebrews 6, the Bible says, “We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.”. God is our heavy, unwavering anchor, that no matter the situation or devastation, He’s there to hold us in place. So what if we get a little beat up along the way, so what if we get pushed and tugged, He’s got us in place, He’s holding us. This scripture says that He is the solid rock on which we stand. He is our hope that hold us, even as we fall.

 

Earlier this week I tweeted something along the lines of “The moment I gave my mountain to God was the moment I stopped trying to conquer it on my own”, and I didn’t realize just how true that statement was until after I tweeted it. The moment we give our all to God, the moment we let his hold us and take care of whatever is going on in our lives, is the moment that we stop doing all ourselves. That lesson is so simple, we start doing it when we are babies. If I give this bottle back to mom then I don’t have to hold it while I play. It’s as simple as that.

Our God is such a strong God, and He is so willing to help us with whatever it is we have that’s putting the word on our shoulder. He’s got the whole word in His hands, so why do we have to feel like it’s on our shoulders. He doesn’t give us anything that can break us.

Hearts & Rockets,

Kelly